There is a deep desire...that everyone wants to feel...And I wonder what that desire is all about...
Well time and again I've been trying to figure that out myself within me and recently while I was thinking about the same I discovered something very strange...It was a series of questions that came to me one after another...And there was nothing that could answer those questions...Strange but true..
In between all those questions there was one that hit me hard, really hard. It said "Who am I?"
Everyone might have some day or the other come across this question. Well as for me, I could not get an answer to it. For a really long time, as long as I remember I've been like a puppet, dancing to what others tell me. sometimes its my parents, sometimes my friends, sometimes my peers and sometimes all the others possible.
Today I don't know who am I. What are my original thoughts...What do I like?...What do I feel happy about?...what is it that I want now?...and among all these linked questions I lost myself somewhere.
I never had the opportunity to be ME...The feel of being myself is somewhere lost. Where am I now?...what is my identity?...there has been a huge conflict inside me that has made me face the unknown.
Mom said "girl you have to be this" ...I DO...Friends said "Hey! You should not do this"...I didn't do it ever ...Time and again I've been standing still and obeying to every command that came to me...
People asked me "WHY" but today I think its time for me to ask them "WHY?"
Why do I have to obey others when I have a life of my own...Don't I have the freedom to Live my LIFE? I want to search myself in this crowd..I am lost somewhere deep...
Today it's all about finding my IDENTITY...finding ME within ME
